“What the fuck happened?”
Oh hai tumblr. Don’t mind me while I post another senseless raging post again. And its not going to be in neat order.
So many heavy thoughts. So many questions. Yet, no answers to them. So many things going on in my little mind. But it all comes down to the same line over and over again at the end; “What the fuck happened?”.
I question myself daily. I forbid myself to keep thinking. But it just couldn’t work out properly. I dont know why I choose to suicide myself even I know the outcome. Unfortunately, I have allowed the worst take control over me. TCH.
Call me a fool. Call me foolish. Call me a retard. Call me a loser. If I could find a fusion to all those names, I would take that name for myself. But thats not what I’m raging about.
I guess karma whacked me pretty good.
Honestly to say, 2012 hasnt been very nice so far. And since its already been a bad start for the year, I’ll say shit is about to go down.
/: I dont know how one could ignore entirely of everything that had happened. Or maybe I’m actually capable of doing that too, but I’m not strong enough to achieve it. Though I wish I could, so I wouldn’t feel so much pain. But I shouldn’t be blaming them about this. I dont even know what the heck I’m typing now. Everything’s pretty random. So yes.
But now I think about it… I can’t help it but I want to just apologize for all I’ve done for you and such. I feel like I’ve been an annoyance and this irritant to you in the past few months. I’m sorry ):
The past few earlier months, were honestly pretty awesome to me. Maybe it didnt feel like much to you, it was somehow just fun and wonderful. It helped me a lot to get me by (: oh wow. okay. I’ve got to stop thinking about it now. /stabs thigh.
Alright, Im not functioning well anymore. My brain’s all juiced out. Gotta crash for 4 hours only. Then its time to report for the 9 months of hell. Just gonna keep praying everyday.
Goodnight, tumblr.
PS: get well soon (:
